Journaling- An Endeavour to Contemplation!!

एक मोहल्ला मेरा भी है जिसकी नीव ही डर और असुरक्षा है डर, असुरक्षा; हाँ, रिश्ता गहरा है यहाँ  पल-पल अपनी वृत्तियों को  हावी होता देखती हूँ,  उन  बंधनों को तोड़ने के बजाय  उनसे भीतर ही भीतर लड़ बैठती हूँ,  कभी आलस, कभी चिंता कभी ग्लानी तो कभी गुस्सा  कभी बक बक करता हुआ बोलता ये मन, कभी झूठी आशा, तो कभी ख़ुद से वो किये गए सतही सुधार हेतु संकल्प  एक चक्र है जो ये मैरी गो राउंड का झूला जो है ये  प्रतीत होता है, जैसे हवा में झूल  रही हूँ  सच तो ये हैं, इस चक्र में बस जकरी हुई हूँ ||  इस बस्ती में पड़ोसन भी है रिश्ते जो कर्मकाण्ड में मधहोश पड़े हैं, क्या करें क्या न करें.; जो है आधार इनका कृष्ण के ‘कर्ता’ से जो बेहद दूर खड़े हैं, हंसती हूँ खुद पर अज्ञानता ने  शिकार जो किया इसी बस्ती में अपना मोहल्ला  बसाने का चुनाव जो मैंने किया सोचती हूँ , कभी यूँही जब आएगी, वो  आखिरी घड़ी  लूंगी जब मैं अंतिम सांस तो क्या सुकून से आंखे मूंद पाऊँगी? या फिर ये रिश्तेदार, समाज उस वक्त भी सर पर जंजीरें ले खड़े रहेगें ? उस वक्त भी अप...

My life is a set of patterns, A machine it is The stomach growls  asking - ‘It’s time to supply fuel’ And here, comes food The body yawns  And it lies down and farts Alarm bell rings And work reminds me of the deadline and yelling boss Mundane work, with no bigger purpose Still, i run and run in the race Spending my morning and evening time in traffic and rage. Now, I am all exhausted Hunger is no more I fall on the bed and sleep Eat, Work & Sleep That is the pattern, i live A machine I am A false life is all I have Huh!! Look here, look closely Even a machine has so much sense of self ‘I’ is constantly sitting at the centre  And the controller of this life game Afraid, insecure- ‘I’ am Constantly running behind security And collecting whatever this ‘I’ can Building homes, hoarding money,  yearning for name and fame Sometimes, its a wonder, Is this what life all about? Hold on, Hold on A question is raised, But a machine never questions How did this happen? The a...

मैं भावना हूँ: एक प्रवाह, बहती नदी की धार की तरह, इस शरीर में बहती हूँ, प्रकृति की हूँ, प्रकृति में हूँ  तुम जो बूझो मुझको तो प्रकृति के पार जाने का जरिया हूँ  ना समझो, तो माया का: चक्रव्यूह हूँ ||   मैं आज की कोई नई खोज नहीं सदियों पुराना रिश्ता है मेरा, मानव से, तुमसे  जंगलों जितना पुराना, तुम्हें लगता है, ये जो मेरी भावना है,  बड़ी पवित्र और मासूम है, कुछ खट्टी - कुछ मीठी, कुछ किलकारी भरी, तो कुछ आंखों में मोती सा चमकती हुई,  कुछ निर्भरता का जिक्र है, तो कुछ खामोशी में कहीं अनकही बातें। कुछ दूरियों में मिलन की तड़प है, तो कुछ नजदीकियों में जन्म-जन्मान्तर का संग ||   ऐसे ही बनते हैं ना, तुम्हारे सारे रिश्ते ?  ऐसे ही बूनते हो ना, तुम अपनी काल्पनिक कहानियाँ ? ऐसे ही लगता है ना, आज तो कुछ नया हो गया ?  भाव विभोर, हो चले तुम तो।|   हंसी आ रही है मुझे तुमपर, पता है क्यों? तुम इसी "मैं, मेरी भावना" के खेल में फंस चुके हो, मेरी ही माया जाल के गुलाम बन चुके हो |   अब तुम कराहोगे, याद है, वो चिट्ठियों में की गयी बातें? याद है, वो काली चां...

  letters-from-a-father-to-his-daughter This book has a collection of letters addressed by Pt. Jawaharlal Nehru from Allahabad to his daughter Indira, who is at Mussoorie. The letter discusses about the pre-historic times. By Pre-historic, we mean before history, as there is no real history of that period i.e. very very old times. These letters were just personal letters when they were written, teaching Indira who is 10 years old, about the earth and the world. You will read about the earth and its age, how life came into existence on earth, about the time when there was no one on the planet, and then, about the time when only animals existed on planet with no humans and then how humans came into existence from apes. Adaptation and evolution mechanism. It discusses about old stone age, new stone age (neo-lithic age), discovery of fire, settlement due to beginning of agriculture and the beginning of civilization. You will read about very interesting facts about the earliest civiliz...

siddhartha-hermann-hesse This post on the book- Siddhartha, by Hermann Hesse is going to be a post of what I personally came across while reading this book. So, here it goes 😊 Happy Reading !! Our own discovery to our inner self is a sweet love affair!! There is no set path that is uniformly applicable to all.  The characters Siddhartha, Govinda, Kamla, Vasudeva clearly depict this in the book. And, I think, that’s the beauty- our own discovery to inner self. Truth is just too intimate, one like Siddhartha has to experiment, keep on learning, keep on moving. The story depicts how Siddhartha lived his choices as a brahmin’s son, then a samana, a rich merchant, Kamala’s lover, ferryman’s student , a grieving father and ultimately a wise ferryman. However, in all the roles that Siddhartha played- he deep inside has only one intention- just to know the Truth :- As Saint Kabir Saheb Ji says- मैं बौरी मेरे राम भरतार ता कारण रचि करियों श्रृंगार || (The couplet means t...

A Midsummer-Night's Dream is a comedy, fantasy fiction play by Shakespeare  written around in 1595 or 1596, the year as wikipedia mentions. midsummer-nights-dream I was just going through the initial act, wherein the character Egeus appears before the duke of Athens- Theseus, asking him to enforce the law against his daughter of either marrying to the person of his choice or hang her to death. No wonder, women since ages, been degraded down as the property of patriarchy set up.  Patriarchy simply derives a lot of  pride in deciding the past, present and future of the daughters. Simply, by exercising control, what is she supposed to do, where she would marry, when and with whom, she is to procreate, whom she is going to spend her entire life with, and so on.  Well! unfortunately, women have just been degraded down to as a bodily element. I sometimes, pity those fathers and all the men,  who are just simply being dragged down by their authoritative and animalisti...